susan

ahhh i dont know about you guys, but i am going crazy right now haha

i really loved praise night, and for teh immediate couple of hours i really felt overflowed with just GOD hahaha.

since i did just do homework for an hour and a half (at which some of you may scoff - i suck at studying and have absolutely no endurance), i kind of feel like giving a mini-testimony. and also sharing my life story. i think it'd be kind of cool if we did that too. 

so to add on to christine's confessions, let's also share our life stories and maybe even testimonies. haha.

1) CONFESSIONS: i judge everyone all the time --" i can't help it hahahaha. and then i feel bad when they turn out to be nice but i judge them anyway. which is awful but i think it's a self-defense type of thing. i'm working on it.

2) LIFE STORY: born in yokohama, japan, lived there till i was seven; lived in burnaby, vancouver, bc, canada for eight months, then moved to a burb of chi-town where i now reside. also i love/am obsessed with F4 (the first one and the most superiorest one). if you dont know who they are, go google them. and until then we can no longer be acquaintances.

3) TESTIMONY: soooo this is really weird. because if you asked me even five months ago about God i would'ev told you that this whole christianity thing was ridiculous and that there is absolutely no reason for me (or anyone, for that matter) to believe. anyway, even when i first came to america (fob alert...haha) my parents didnt really know a lot of people, so we started going to these bible study group things right? except my parents didnt really believe so then we stopped going. but during that time i went to vacation bible school and all that jazz. my freshman year in high school, i went on a church retreat with a friend. but as my high school years went by, i could only go to youth groups once in a while with friends - my parents went asian on me and told me that i wasn't allowed to go to church becasue i had to study instead and get into a good college (now known as penn haha). so anyway at the end of my senior year, my ap physics teacher gave me a bible and a copy of mere christianity. and while i was packing for college, i decided to bring it with me.

my first semester of college was really hard. i came out of summer having spent nearly every day with my two best friends. i missed them terribly, but even worse, i felt like one of them - the guy - was just drifting so far from me. he got involved with his church right away (like im sure some of you did with gcc). ironically, he goes to hmcc, which is also part of ami. anyway, i was so angry at him and hurt and stuff because he didnt seem to care or have time or whatever anymore (i think this was especially problematic because i kinda liked him over the summer and blahblahblah). beacsue he WAS christian and very god-focused all of a sudden, i was the opposite. to spite him. to be stubborn/angry. whatever. 

but somehow little signs keps popping up. for example, oneo f the activiites i joined here was penn music mentoring. the two girls that i went with were both christian - one of them goes to living water and i cant remember which one the other goes to - and after i'd argued with the kid from the last paragraph, i started asking questions about christianity. after all, this wasnt the first tiem that it had been exposed in my life, and maybe i was curious after all. so one of the girls brought me to FOG - freshmen of god. 

now this is where oneo f you comes in - jabez. haha. so i was facebook stalking (sorry jabez...) and then i saw that jabez seemed very strongly christian and so i snooped adn found that he went to a chruch called gcc. by this time i had semi-made up with guy from paragrph 2 so i told him about gcc, to which he said "what? like ami?" and i wasl ike "idk" but it turns out they are sister churches, right? so i made up my mind and jabez took me to my first ever service. and i like to think that it was at that service that i "became christian" (idk why but i have serious issues using that phrase - i dont likie puttnig a label on it). it was powerful and i ermember just asking God to help me to stop wavernig back and forth. my entire high school career had been praying some nights, not caring others. and i was sick of falling away but coming back. i wanted to stay.

...and now here i am. wheeeee.

back to homework/studying =(