christine

Hey guys,
So I thought of something during today's message.

Confessions and accountability.

I went to a youth retreat with my home church over Winter Break, and instead of the typical altar call, the speaker asked people to publicly confess sins that they were struggling with. I think it's true that we might not want to admit our faults because we're fearful that the people around us will judge us for our faults. But everyone's got things to admit, big or small.

Until confession happens, healing cannot begin. And until you confess to someone else, there's no one to keep you accountable.

So... I don't know. I thought maybe we could use this blog as a springboard, maybe, to talk about things that we deal with. Especially because Lent is coming up. We might all be giving up things, but some of us may need more accountability than others, and where better to find accountability from our brothers and sisters?

Maybe you're uncomfortable with sharing what you're struggling with, and that's totally legit. But I encourage you all to definitely share with someone. Two (or more) are stronger than one.

I thought I might share something that's really been on my mind lately. Because some of you read this blog, I hope you can help me be accountable, or maybe help pray for me about it.

I suck at Devotionals.

I didn't do them in high school. Or ever, really. Not that I didn't think about God, but I never really spent one-on-one time with Him. But it's an awesome feeling, you know - to bring every day to God at some point? Now, in college, I want to be consistent with approaching Him. I've been waking up even earlier than usual lately just because I want to have a clear mind and start my day focused on God. But I find that when I get to start QT-ing, my mind is already filled with worries: assignments that are due soon, upcoming quizzes, how cold it is outside, etc.

It really frustrates me that when I finally become consistent with a time to QT, I find myself not approaching God in the way that I should. I subconsciously rush myself through it even though I've set aside a lot of time. And it's just not good for how I start my days with God.

I don't know how you guys are with QT-ing, but I always feel like I'm subpar in that category compared with other people. If you could pray for me, or maybe if you see me during the day just ask how my QTs are, that would be really helpful and encouraging. Thanks a lot!

So, confession: Hi, my name is Christine, and I struggle with devotionals.